I hate…

That it seems like the word I say most everyday is ‘Sorry’.
That it seems like the thing I do most now, is doubt and contradict every decision I want to make.
That it seems like things should really be a lot easier, but they are the exact opposite.
That it seems like I have so much expectations upon myself, that I can’t deliver on.
That it seems like I want to leave, forever, but when i’m right at that point of possibility… I can’t.

I love her, and I love the help I can give her. But I can’t truely love if I can’t love myself. If I can’t look out for myself, what is the use in actually living.

I didn’t really have a point in this post, I just realise that my tumblr is really one of the only places that I can put up how I really feel, and not be completely scrutinised by the people around me…
I am grateful for everything in my life, even the bad things that have taught me the right way to do things. Can’t I just have my life?

With a smile on my face, and a warm beat in my heart, the only thing I can do in this life is try. And let’s hope it works out :)

I just want to thank all my friends, and family, and everyone out there that inspires me to keep going, inspires my music, and fuels my love. For you.